Sian x 100000000000000000000000000000

Time is 1:06am...
felt very sian the whole of todae...
doing nothing productive...
rotting at home...
maybe i'm sick...
coughing non stop the whole of todae...
doing nothing at home...

tired... yet dun feel like sleeping...
feel like playing games... yet it juz seem boring...
feel like surfing net... yet no mood...
juz wanna sit and rot...

the retaliation of the lobsters...
i feel the pain from cuts on my hands...
given to be by the lobsters i egerly silenced...

life sucks...
wat will happen to us 20 yrs into the future?
how many of us will still be in this line 20 yrs down the road?
38 classmates...
some already backed out...
how many left?
after attachment...
how many left?
after 5 yrs...
how many left?
after 10 yrs...
how many left?
after 20 yrs......

we can never be able to predict the future...
who noes?
the least we ever thought of in our class might be an Executive Chef 20 yrs later...
maybe even Director of Kitchens...
and those we highly look up to end up and engineer or a salesman...
or in another totally different profession...
dat does not even have the slightest link to hospitality...
who noes?
i might even join stewarding?
*rolls eyes*

i used to have so much things to do when i'm having my off dae...
so many places i can go to...
now...
i guess working is so much better dan off dae...
staying at home... rotting...
i guess... even if i died at home...
none of my friends would noe...

life just sucks...
people come and go everydae...
will u still be my friend 10 yrs later?

life is like a bus...
you are the driver...
the people u meet are the passengers...
they come in...
and alight at their stop...
not many ppl will ride in the bus all the way...
at times... the whole bus will be empty...
you're all alone...
how many will actually complete the entire ride to the terminal?

argh... feel so sian...
suddenly feel so alone...
everybody's sleeping...
at this unearthly hour...

i wanna sleep... and i dun feel like sleeping...
i wanna shower... but dat stupid heater not working...
have been spoilt so long ago... yet never repaired...
shower in cold water everydae...
argh... dun care lah...
i go shower now...
after dat... i'm sleeping...

sian sian sian sian sian...

i dun remember writing time in my blog b4...
guess this's my 1st time...
oh well...
time is 1:33am now...
good nite...